27 January 2012


the time waited arrived
I am speechless
thanx a lot to everybody 
with all your hardwork and commitments
there are many things I need to do with the money
but for now
I just like freezing
and don't know what to do
let me think first..
oh I can't think!

#roomate aku sergah aku masa aku tengah tidur semata-mata nak bagitahu elaun sudah masuk..nasib baik good news..kalau tidak, malam ni gerenti dia tidur dalam wad..

26 January 2012


we are going
to Keningau
I was forced to actually
hey! what do you expect?
allowance still not in
and still can go jalan-jalan ka?
they forced me
and because of friends
i will
hopefully everything will be ok
and sure i will update in the next entry

*if the allowance in when we are's heaven..haha


it's might be the day but it seems too long
to wait from morning until the final hour.
but nobody will never give up to wait
for many reasons

I am so nervous
since everything is not confirm yet
but I still checking up for updates
because it will be fun if I will be the one
who knows the good news first and spread it to everyone.

I don't know if I need to pray for time to move faster
or slower.
if it moves faster,
the holiday will be end soon
but the time waited might be come faster, maybe
if it moves slower,
the time waited will come later, i think so
but the good thing is holiday just like a month to go.
there i started to talk nonsense..again..


dear friends
i am so sorry for my status in facebook earlier today.
i posted 'ELAUN!!!' is not because it already in
but because i hope it is in already..huhu
sorry again.hehe.. peace (n_n)v

*lets pray together..


semua kegembiraan
semua kebahagiaan
semua keseronokan
yang baru aku rasakan
entah ke mana..

sekarang dan tadi
tak ada yang sama.

padan muka!
tak boleh salahkan sesiapa
diri sendiri yang menurut kata syaitan
walau tahu syaitan itu sesat
lagi menyesatkan..


25 January 2012


after google, facebook, myBSN is my favorite page now..

*keep waiting..


I can't deny that I do blogging according to my mood
sometime this blog updated once in a blue moon
but let see few days back..
it was updated very frequently
well, yeah! I am in the blogging-mood!!

another reason is maybe because my broadband got problem.
hence I can't  facebooking during the day.
well the wifi don't allow me to.
so I only got blogger to accompany me.
thanks to blogger anyway.
thanks to the wifi too..

talking about moody
I think I do my
according to my mood also.
so don't be surprise if I always staying up late, the night before submitting the courseworks.
I only got the mood to do it that time.
actually, I was forced to find the mood.
or else, i will failed!

doing works or study by mood is absolutely NOT GOOD
but it is fun..for some reason.. :p

*do correct me if there are grammatical errors..tQ~




talking about allowance..
I remembered something.
last semester, it was happened in Ramadhan.
well, every night Muslims perform tarawikh.
included in my campus.
once, I read one of my juniors status in facebook
he said that..
"kalau elaun tak masuk aku malas nak pergi surau malam ni"
something like that, if I am not mistaken.
and so the allowance didn't in that day.
he proved it that he didn't go to surau and I don't know if he performed the tarawikh.
it is sunnah by the way.
it was so lucky that the next day we got the allowance
Alhamdulillah..everyone seem so happy
since we can eat healthier food rather than instant noodles
or anything such like that.
and I was waiting for that junior's status
if he said he will go to surau as he was very grateful for the money he got.

its irony!
that evening the day he got his allowance,
I saw him in front of his room
wearing casually, so handsome he was
and I asked..
' going out dude? '
he smiled and said
' yeah ' proudly.
I smiled back to him.

I wonder..
how come?
did he forgot what he said?
if no allowance he didn't want to go to surau.
just like he need money to just walking to surau
while if he went to surau,
he can get food..the moreh.
when he already got the allowance,
he still didn't go to surau..
shopping i guess,got money right?!

whatever dude!
u got brain, use it wisely..
by the way..don't be so touching if you read this.
hope you spent this semester's allowance well..

*i also waiting for it.. $_$ *

#English aku tak bagus sangat..sebab tu aku belajar..enjoy! 

24 January 2012 is not me!

people who don't know me might be said that i am an Anti-Social
but actually i am not
i had a friend who used to be one of my besties during my childhood
he was my classmates since i was standard three until standard six.
after that we were not even in the same school anymore since i chose to stay in hostel.
actually students were chosen to be in that school
and i was chosen. so lucky me.

the friend of mine somehow now ended his study i guess
because every time i am at home during the holiday
i can see him hanging out with some of my childhood friends
in front of my home under the tree.

FYI my sisters house is very near with mine. actually my dad's.
so every time i went to my sister's, i will see them talking about anything that i don't know.
i don't even want to know.

i tried to do some conversation before
but i didn't make it
because i think their way of thinking doesn't match with mine
it might because we didn't mingle around for few years back
well since i enter the hostel i guess.

sometimes i thought,
what was their perception towards me?
walking in front of them without saying any single thing. and looking at the ground.
[very der wanita melayu terakhir]

actually i am not anti-social
i just don't know how to start a conversation
and how to make it longer
especially to someone that i don't know
or someone that i didn't talk to for a long time.
sometime i think that society is anti-me
but it was a very negative thinking of mine.
i am sure it is not.

so people
if you saw me, do start a conversation
because i do like to talk
try me! [kalo ngam topiknya la]
or at least i will answer your Q's and smile.
i smile a lot. =)

*sometime people didn't smile back to us when we smiled to them. i think it is rude! u don't need to pay to smile. you will feel happier instead..well, i do!*


The mybsn homepage become my favourite page
Just because the allowance didn't in yet.
I don't know
Even i know it is impossible that the money will entered to my account during the weekend or holiday
I still want to make sure that if it is in already
I got envy to my juniors
they got theirs already
I hope i can get it faster for this semester since my account is active
Not just like last semester
I think i am the last person to feel the money
for some hours
then all gone again paying for bills
and debt..

*giler ah...entry english kot..tak macam terabur pulak english aku..hoho..